My brother told me that

I remember one conversation with my brother where he shared his 'wisdom' of men. He said:
In the teen and early 20's men will only think of sex
In the late 20's and early 30's men will only think of money

Lies. guys only think of one thing haha
 

Hey guys,

How are you. It's been years since I've been updating this. I guess I found myself being happy and found myself little need to express myself here, online. But it's been a turbulent 2015, and I feel the need to write something here, again. I guess I'll keep coming back.

In 2015:
I have experienced major losses
I have lost my mother, my aunt.
I also finally experienced love, and I lost it.
It was wonderful, it was painful, but even though it hurts I want to fall again
It thought me a lesson, and also thought me what I want in life, and what I want in men
I've discovered that I am a person with worth, and I want someone with worth to share my life with
It also thought me the formula for screening men haha
I have always considered myself unattractive, but recently I've learned that I not unattractive
I have scandalous offers, plenty of them
I am lost
Career wise, I am lost.
Spiritually, I am lost and yet I am calm in my lost ways
I am happy, but I know I can be happier
Financially, I am at lost too
No longer able to save constantly, living frugally waiting for my paycheck every month
I want to change
Healthwise, I think my body's breaking down
Lethargy, no evergy, mindfog. my feet's aching everyday, constant stomach ailments, flu every month
Gettting old I guess

lucid dreams

I fell into a deep sleep this afternoon. A short nap, but filled to the brim with dreams.

Th first dream is like a video presentation. A montaj of scenes from my past.

It started with my first meeting with a certain longtime crush. The first impression. Then it proceeds to the part when i realized i had a serious crush on him and ended when it was the last time i saw him.

It surprised me because its been years since it happened, i don't know what happened to him and i thought i've forgotten all about him.

Guess youll never forget your first crush? Ridiculous really because he's just a crush! Its not like he's my first love. And it happened nearly 10 years ago. Why did i remember him suddenly?

Maybe all my korean celebrity crush can take my mind of this issue eh? Hahaha

Second dream is like a constant fear to me. The guards of uitm. The pak guard fear syndrome. I really really dont like them. I couldnt even meet their gaze in the eyes straight because i fear they might stop me and fine me for stupid reasons.
Really the pak guards of uitm are like clowns straight from the creative mind of Stephen King.

Dreams are like the manisfestation of your greatest worries. Even though i really dont spend time thinking of those things, subconsiously, i do.

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facials, spa etc

Yesterday is the first time in my life that i went to a spa for a facial. Yes, i've been living for 25 years as a girl but i rarely paid any attention to my face (except when i grew pimples or my skin peeled off after a bad sunburn). I was scheduled to have this session with my sister when she won a couples spa session at this beautyhub place. The facial is using an overseas brand called Payot (pronounced payoo thanks you, it's supposed to be a french/swiss name).
First thing you have to do when you enter this exclusive place is to fill a form or questionaire about your skin. Have you went for a laser peel before? Ever had a botox injection before? What types of skincare are you using now? What are your skin concern; fine lines, neck lines, dark undereye circle etc. Soooo many questions, but i guess it's a good thing that they asked it, they wouldnt want to do anything to your face to find your face have swollen up due to allergies right?
After that they explained the procedure (we are having the hydrating treatment), they gave us a glass of sky juice and let us use the bathroom first since the whole procedure takes 1 hour+++.
They let us into a room and asked us to take everything off and wear their filmsy white gauze spa gown. Take everything off? No way! So i ended taking off my tee only. I was wearing strapless bra and my jeans only when i donned on the robe. I lay down on the bed and the beautician wrapped me up real cozy under the towels. The room is cool, with some soothing music, and the therapist wrapped my head and shoulders with warm towels. It feels heavenly.
The beautician begin to wash my face wih some cream cleanser, and cleaned it away with a sponge. They she lathered something that smells nice and she washed it off again. Then she massaged my head and did something to may hair, she liked pulled it. It feels really good. Seriously. The she scrubbed my face with some fine scrub thingy. Next thing she massaged my hands and feet. My feet are wrapped with hot towels and she pumeled my soles. It feels really nice. Then she rubbed some kind of lotion on my handa and shoulders. I know i am repeating myself but it feels so f***ing nice. Then she steamed my face for a while. It was warm and smells nice so i started to get drowsy.She then asked my permission to start the extraxtion process. She pinced my skin and used some sharp metal thingy to get rid of my blackheads. Luckily i didnt have a lot of blackheads and the process is short and relatively painless. Phew. I was scared when she said she want to do extraction. But it really is painless compared to when i popped my pimple heehee.
Then she applied a mask. She said its a cleansing mask. Its the first of three masks that shes going to put on my face. What? Three mask on my face on a single day? I couldnt open my eyes because she put on something on my eyes. So did you know what i did? I slept like a baby. My sis later laughed at me because she said she heard myself snoring. I guess i cant help myself. It felt really comfy so i fell asleep.
I dont remember my therapist applying another two masks but i finally woke up when i felt her massaging my face with a soft slapping motion. How can i continue sleeping when she slapped my face( soft slapping is still slapping to me ). She then proceed to apply some hydrating serum from Payot and applied some moisturizer. It felt a bit sticky.though.She massaged my face and shoulders and back and then whalla, i am done.
After that they briefed us about the brand and tried to pursuade my sis to buy a package that is worth rm1xxx. What? So expensive. My sis said she ia currently going to Sothys so she'll thing about the offer. They gave us another glass of sky juice before sending us off.
After that we were hungry so we went to the restaurant next door to order food. The restaurant is called Duduk. Cute. So we duduk there and me and my sis discussed our experience while waiting for the food. Overall its a good thing and my sis did laughed a lot at my snoring. The massage feels soo heavenlg. My skin does feel clean, but the moisturizer she applied feel really sticky. And my blackheads on my nose are gone, for a while perhaps. But if the blackheads came back, i really couldnt afford another facial to remove them. Oh well. At least i could have said to people that i have been to a facial.

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Your teeny...

A classmate of mine experienced something that can only be described as scarring to a girl. But this thing is something a girl will experience at least once a lifetime, more if you are attractive and are prone to walk on your own most of the times. Enough clues to guess?

I am talking about sexual harrassment. A long coat man in korean terms. Flasher.

Flashing to be exact. Flash what you ask? Unzipping the fly of your pants and show that thingy. The boy thing. Pee pee. Wee wee. Yeye. Banana. Dick. Hahaha. Is it clear now?

My classmate was walking along a deserted street when a guy on a bike came and followed her. He than showed his unmentionable parts and started stroking it. He proceed to say obsene stuff to her that i will not mention here cause it gives me the creeps.

The first thing that came to my mind while i'm listening to her is, how does he ride a motorcycle while stroking himself? An incredible feat.

Anyway i remembered back then when the topic of flasher was mentioned by my sis in law. She told the story of a serial flasher at her all girls school. Their teacher was so fed up with it and formulated a plan to get rid of the flasher for good. The teacher called a team of girls who are not easily disgusted by the flasher and are told to stare unflinchingly at the flasher when he took out his thingy. They did and the flasher got angry and took off with a huff. He was never seen again.

The moral of that story is that sexual act of exposing his manly parts to innocent girls and to hear their scream are addictive to flashers. They have his delusion that the screams are the result of awe at his size. o_O

Really i have no idea why they do it. Maybe they are sexually frustrated? Watched too much porn? Some unsolved psychological childhood issues? Maybe they think it's a great pick-up thing?

Way messed up. Why do they think girls want to see that anyway?

What can you do in situation.

First don't give any reaction. Nothing at all. It's because flashers thrive on girls reaction. Don't give them the satisfaction of hearing you scream.
Don't taunt them back. They may retaliate and you could be hurt.
Don't stare at his thingy. He may like it.
Stare at someplace else, and pretend like he does not exist. They usually get bored with that reaction and move on to the next exciting victim.
At the same time try to remember details of the offender like how he looks like,license plate of his vehicle etc. Report him to he police.
The last resort is you stare at his face and make a sign with your fingers saying, "it's small".

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Bored to tears

You know why some people said that they are bored to tears? Some may said it as an exaggeration, like i always do. Buy today i somehow have an epiphany. I now now that the human being is physically capable of crying out of boredom.
Why? Because during the 4 hours lecture i've endured today, my eyes produced tears that could drown the world. (This is actually an exaggeration, of course, cause i am physically incapable of producing that huge amount of tears. But i assure you, i cried. A lot)
Now i need to drink gallons of water. You know, to hydrate myself. And to endure another 4 gruelling hours of lecture after this. Owh someone please just shoot me.
P.S: I was being sarcastic the whole time okay? Just making it clear just to avoid misunderstandings. I don't actually want anyone to murder me using a high calibre rifle or something k?

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Things to do on a sem break

It's a long sem break and I will not see the pak guards in a long time..so time to break some rules and do things that will give pak guards heart attacks.

Top 5 things to do on a sem break that are otherwise forbidden in the campus.

1) Wear my earring on all my piercings hahah

2) Wear my jeggings whenever I liked it

ps: the grey jegging is the exact copy of mine haha
3) Wear slippers <3
4)Dye my hair red!

5) Wear tshirts without layering it. Just regular short sleeved tshirts.

Haa take that pak guard uitm. Hahaha

P.s: sorry got nothing interesting to write about

4 months already?

Updating the blog is really getting tiring...so I stopped writing. Shame on me. Haha I malas! What to do mehhh.

Anyway today I just remembered I have a blog, and it's been left on the corner to rot, so I decide, why not?

So I updated! hahaha

First is happy birthday to my mom Embun Ali, and happy mother's day too. Lucky both days are in the same month. Sorry didn't buy you anything, but I will. Next month maybe. haha.

Anyway on the 30th of April is my first final paper. Best of luck (like my mom always said) to everyone who is taking the finals with me. GOOD LUCK! Study la weih.

Now I remembered. I should study~~! :((

Bye guys.

PS: My color formatting is not working today....arghhh

Best of 2010 Part 1

This year, for me, is one of the best years of my life. I always lived a semi-charmed life, and yet this year I feel that I'm truly charmed. The best year of my life.I am born on the year of the tiger, and this year is the year of the tiger too. Maybe that's why...heheh. I wish my luck would carry on to the next year. And the next.

Recap of 2010 stats with my holiday trips...

Okay 2010 holiday highlights:

Started with last year's December trip to Kota Kinabalu. Near Chrismas.

Haha found this mannequin during last year's trip in 1Borneo in KK. Funny pose. And the pillow location is very strategic.

Went to the Taman Laut Tunku Abdul Rahman. Went to Pulau Manukan and Pulau Mamutik only. Supposed to go to Pulau Sapi but my mom stepped on a sea urchin (and my thumb was bitten by a sharp teethed coral eating fish) so we went back early.

Next went to visit Gunung Kinabalu. The view is utterly awesome and out of this world. You have to go and see it for yourself. I'm serious. Next day went shopping and bought tonnes of pearl and exotic fish to bring back home.

Next highlight is my trip to southern thailand. Phuket,Krabi and Hadyai are the main destinations in this tour.

First stop Krabi. Picture taken somewhere in Krabi. Next stop Phuket. Phuket have been devastated by tsunami, so this signboard are everywhere.

Next stop Hadyai. Shopping time!

This was taken at the famous hadyai floating market. I have to say the food are delicious!

to be continued....

Coming up in part 2: perhentian and bali?

The Farro brothers left Paramore because of me?

pics from perez's site

Haha NOT! I wish. Although Ana did accuse me because I stole Zac Farro's drumstick. Hahaha.

I caught this when Josh threw it during their concert. Priceless!

I went to their concert in Malaysia several months ago, and I have to say even though Hayley Williams is their frontman, the Farro brothers are Paramore's pillars. Without them, Paramore is still Paramore, but less authentic. What I'm saying is the Paramore with them is like concentrated Parfum oil, the Paramore without them is like Eau de Toilette. Who's gonna replace Zac? Josh? Hey Josh I know you just got married but why? Why leave?

I wish them happiness in whatever they will do in the future though. And Hayley too. 

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Makeup successfully hoarded

A lot isn't it? I buy lots but I don't use them often...too lazy maa 

The boy that got away

have you ever had any regrets? About not taking the right choices, about how things turn out and how that one got away? If you could turn back time, you would do things differently and see how it turned out?

I do. Years ago. If I had more courage, if I wasn't what I was back then, maybe things would be different. Maybe. I hope he's happy now. And I will find my own  happiness with someone else.

Listening to this song really takes me back...

Dinner time with Domino's thin crust pizza

Sound's yummy? It is!

I really wanted this but since I'm alergic to prawns...darn it...so ordered another.

Ever ordered Domino's pizza? They have this 30 minutes guarantee.

30-Minutes Delivery Guarantee!
Domino’s is the only pizza company that guarantees your order will arrive within 30 minutes or we’ll give you a free Regular Pizza voucher

Well it's true. Tonight ordered from Domino's and it arrived 5 minutes late. Haha free pizza! 

You can also order their pizza's online. They even have special offers for online ordering. I'll have to try doing that one day...

Dreams

I woke up this morning to find myself still lingering in the dream I was having. It's like it really happened.  

The thing is why on earth did I dream of him? 

wae? wae?

Why CHOI SIWON?? I don't even like him that much.....

Got prawn behind the mee maa....

Prawn mee anyone?

NOT!! Sorry it's scorpions, and it's not even behind the mee. Yummy!

pics frm google yaa don't sue me

So beast!

Last night I kept tossing and turning, and fell into a dreamless sleep. When I woke up it was 9 am and immediately I went online and checked my result.The butterflies and the violent churning of my stomach dissappeared immediately. It's like a weight have been lifted off my shoulder, a vice grip have been removed from my heart. From now I can sleep well. Thanks god!. 

Anyway ... BEAST/B2ST is coming to Malaysia!!. Aren't they awesome! So BEAST!

from top right: Dong Woon,Hyun Seng,Yo Seob, Jun Hyung and from lower right: Ki Kwang and Doo Joon (leader)

Even though I'd LOVE for 

them to come to Malaysia (Deym you JYP, send them to Malaysia Please!!).I do love Beast too. So Beast! In the CUBE!! Hahah

I loike all of them, but my faves are:

DongSeob!! Haha.

Please please somebody is there someone out there that is free on 13th Jan. I really want to go but not alone! Sob sob sob!

I like their Soom choreography. And Yo Seob screaming I DON'T KNOWwwwww here is so adorable.

Another thing:

From right: Seung Ho and Thunder!

Oh and I'm anxiously waiting for MBLAQ comeback. I know their album will be amazing. Saranghaeyo SeungHo oppa *muaks*, fighting!!

ps:pics frm their twitter owkay!

Fractured

Who fractured what? 

I'm actually in KL right now, because several days ago my sis was walking when she slipped and fractured her ankle. She have been inserted with some metal plate and several screws during the operation and now is housebound. 

Just want to share the gory pictures. And cause I'm bored since I'm housebound too. 

Flood in Kedah Nov 2010

The following are pictures taken in areas near my house in my hometown Alor Setar. My house is located at Taman Rakyat Jalan Sultanah. I lived there for my whole life and I assure you that It Has Never Been Hit By The Flood Before! Alor Setar does not, I repeat, does suffer from flood before this. There's not even a river nearby, and no huge drains too. I wonder where the water comes from, and I heard a lot of conspiracy theories about how this came to happen. The entire area was submerged for 3 whole days. You have to imagine the house condition after being submerged under muddy water for that long. 

This is Taman Rakyat Jalan Sultanah

Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Dato Syed Omar

Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Sultanah Bahiyah

This video starts from the entrance to Taman Rakyat and ended near the railway tracks constructions. Which most people said is the main cause of the freak flood.

Of huge trees in the middle of the night.

It's been a while since I've updated my blog, but it's also been a very very long time since I've updated my X-Files. Yes today is the day when I have such an eerie encounter yet again.

First it happened around 10.30pm++ after Law class. Me and 3 friends are walking on the streets, back towards our college when a car honked at someone. That someone is on the opposite side of the road of us, and she is wearing a blue baju kurung, holding a red plastic with a polistrene box inside. She is standing still on the sidewalk, and she was staring at the huge ancient tree. Just staring.

It's late at night? Why would a normal girl would stand all alone in the middle of the darkness staring at an old tree? Aft first i was like, maybe she's stopped to chat on her mobile. I was proved wrong. Cars kept honking at her, and suddenly, she turned around to face the street. I wasn't watching as she turned, but I saw her face when she stared at the honking car. It was creepy. Her face is like frozen, expressionless.

The car that was honking at her apparently felt the same way when they speed away lightning fast. A friend that saw the way she turned, commented that it was creepy,unnatural, slow and clockwork-like. She stood straight up, stiff,and unmoving.

God I knew I have to do something, like do something to get her out of her catatonia or something. But somehow I'm not that brave. Yet I'm worried about her. People might take that chance to rob her, if they were brave.

After a while, we walked passed her and as I turned back to look at her again, she have turned back to stare at the old, huge tree again. As if she was caught in the tree's spell, held captive. 

We told our hostel's guard about that incident, and he went to check. We never knew what happened. But when I took a peek at my balcony, where the huge tree is within sight, I saw that there's no one under it. Maybe she went home safely. Maybe. I hope.

I would like to warn people, especially girls, to never ever walk alone at night. If you really must, walk in the streetlights, not under darkness, especially under the tree shades. Please. Dangers from being victims of a crime aside... 

 

Wardrobe Wishlist

What? Another wishlist? If wishes were Ringgits, I've been a certified multi billionaire a long time ago. 

Anyway there are several key items that are missing from my wardrobe, and I will keep my eyes open for them in my future shopping sprees.

TOP 10 MY WARDROBE MUST HAVES

1) Tights

Because I look weird in leggings. I do. Maybe the shape of my legs are not so flattering. So I need more tights. Preferably not too tight (pun intended), not too sheer, made of cotton, will not tear easily.

2) Oversized hairband

Bunny ears, huge ribbons (soo blair waldorf), huge flower, hat, crown, furry, feathers, nets. Anything. I love it!

3) Animal Prints

Preferred zebra, leopard and snakeskin. New Zealand cow pattern and giraffe also acceptable.

4) Jumpsuits

Jumpsuit in a flattering cut yet comfortable, in stretchy yet swingy,light fabric. Not the uniform type of jumpsuit please (think mechanics, no offence intended). Not Naruto orange jumpsuit too please.

5) The boyfriend shirt

Soft, not too large, not to small. Floral pattern, denim, polka dots, anything. Subtly sexy.

6) Military inspired items

Military jackets with brass buttons (think MJ, MCR's black parade), camouflage patterns,cargo pants. Get the picture?

7) Chilli red plain skinny

Why do I want it? Because until now I haven't found one in my size :( So if I have it my obsession with it will probably fade away.

8)The perfect cardigan

Long, short, knitted, cotton, swing, edgy. Haven't really found the perfect one for me. The search will go on!

9)Vest

The waitress, tuxedo vest. Not the denim, woolen ones, or the life jacket/vest.

10)Checkered pants/plaid pants. 

Bored of my same old pair of jeans I guess.

ps:photos from google